Monday, March 18, 2013

Angry at pain

Angry at pain

Appreciating moments of light in this ever growing darkness slowly creeping up his spine
I beg for it to take you no more …….you are pissing me off
Not now,
Now I put on the battle armour and stand in the front line of this war

I will gird my loins with the hope once held, now long gone in moments of truth and reality
I will use your words as my shield and protect even you from those direct blows on your bonesFuck all who wants a piece of a my broken half,
your mine
Stay away from the heart I carry in my hands
You coward, Death
Feeding on him when my comfort is exhausted
Face my fucking angry blade, scorn beyond what you can envisage,
You snake!! Trying to make him cower as if he is week
Slithering into his shoulders in my absence
I will sheath him with all of me 
I know that holding on is not something I can do forever
But you,
you in your cloak and scythe,
you will have to pry him from these fingers and cut off the arms that hold him here
I will intertwine the fibers of my soul with his, to make new the gifts you try and take from him
So Fucking leave him Alone.

                                                                                                                                              LAA

Friday, March 15, 2013

Serious Talk


Hi everyone
I would kindly like thank all who have taken the time to look past my typo and answer my question.
Does psychometric testing give an accurate description of an applicant?
All of the expert opinions and facts raised, has brought me to a clearer understanding of psychometric testing  as well as all the complex factors that go along with its accuracy,
I have come to a still swayable conclusion that the test, factoring in all the variables, is one of the best well refined psychological tools out there……………………………………….
……………………………………………………………..However, me not being an interesting person much less Psychological Scientist of any sort, think that the human mind is an extremely complex device and then adding a personality that is shaped by even more complex emotions and life experiences makes it easy to remember why sometimes we don’t even understand ourselves .
In light of this and all the comments I think it appropriate that psychometric testing be used for development purposes and not in the recruiting of personnel. Though it eliminates people who may not fit company profile or culture it can easily blind the recruiter to a possible gem amongst the dirt, simply because a test painted a vague outline of a person and could not, in personal opinion, give a complete picture. If it is used in recruitment it should be as an additional component of the process not a determining factor.
One of the things that personally stand out about the test as a great variable, I do not fully understand is that of an emotional stand point.
 If a candidate completes a test today and completes the same test six months from now and the results show two different (not the extreme on the scale of difference) profiles how much can be said about the emotional variance  involved on  each of the days tested and is this accounted for in the test?.
The comments I most find myself agreeing with are the following:
Marcel Harper
Cognitive abilities: your ability to solve complex problems, the speed at which you solve these, and the degree of difficulty you can master, are the best predictors of job performance, psychometrically speaking. On the other hand, personality measures, being self-report, are far less predictive.
Dr Douglas Halliday
In my opinion, psychometric tests are better suited for people development than they are for recruitment.
They provide a very good foundation for discussion rather than an accurate description ie where the test may suggest areas which can be explored further to discover the truth / behavior / how can improve etc.
Rajiv
This is a complex question, and I agree with some of the other responses that test results must be considered within a holistic process.
Ralph B. Perhaps the biggest problem with this type of profile is the way that clients fixate on just one or two phrases in a five or six page report and use them to reject a perfectly capable candidate. I encourage you to educate your clients to see these profiles as profiles, not tests
Toby Marie W.
Yes they are a great tool for job fit, cultural fit, company fit, etc... But it is only one third of the hiring decision

Christopher L.
Business Development Manager - Leader Space at Australian Institute of Management
The use of Psychometric Testing in determining the "fit" of a candidate for any particular role should only be used in the context of a holistic and robust recruitment process.
Ral P.
A critical issue with psychological profile testing is that subjects often respond with answers they believe interviewers wish to hear. Furthermore, the brighter the candidate is, the more of an issue this becomes. A candidate will never knowingly give an answer suggesting they are impatient, overly emotional, prone to making biased judgments, etc. 

Crying pain


Crying pain

Burning into skin leaving inscriptions, thoughts of burning anger
Break me down but do not let them pass
Fight my heart from its own desires
Shackle my mind from its own terrors
For a whim of the heart, for the sake of a chance encounter
Incinerate the flesh that stands in the way of falling
Or the pain I no longer feel might pierce my heart with precision
Reduce to ash your source, oh lachrymose be cremated
No more take me to war with no shields, I’ll give my life and brand it bravery
But no more of you
Burn into nothings for no one will come to wipe you clean.

The handsome Two



The Handsome Two

Emptiness, a feeling worse than any of his rivals, second to none in stature, a brute by any definition takes me this day.
Fearless even in the light, leading me by the hand into the darkness at the edge of sleep.
Held together but thread effortlessly broken, cutting through my wrists with anger.
He pulls on my ventricles and tugs at my valves. Cold and ruthless tug once ………tug twice ……. and again.

Taken by his apprentice Numbness, A handsome fellow with charms that leave breaking hearts in his wake.
And yet I beg, I beg, for him not to take me with his tempting smile.
I beg, I beg for him to untie the bonds that hold me down, to free me from his master’s intent, to govern over what is the last of a quartz soul, the shards of which he has already stolen slowly over time.
I am here once more being taken by two so familiar to me, to a place I fight to never see.

Worse still the realization that this walk may be my last, this try may be my final stand these tears will leave their last traces so I fill my lungs with exasperated screams, with all that I have, I feel all I can. I breathe every angry,  irritated, frustrated,
 exasperated breath my body can hold, but they don’t come for me.
 No one comes for me.
They throw my head upon the guillotine and force me to my knees.
In end what is left of my soul dressed in white linen lays on the dirt of the earth.
You will not take me
You cannot have me
For in my final moment I will smile. In the end Darkness takes me home.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

“Someone for everyone”


Something old

Someone for everyone

There has over the years been much debate , books and even movies on the belief that there is such a thing as two people who are meant only for each other and who are destined to meet somewhere in their lives. Also referred to as: "The One" or in this instance, the phrase: "Someone for everyone".
I think everyone needs something to believe in.
Some people (as mentioned above) believe that there is only one person in the entire universe (yes one), that you are destined to meet who can and will be the person you are meant to be with, almost like pre-ordained or fate.

While some people are realists who believe that anyone can be "The One" if you work hard, compromise, listen and become best friends.
 Others, believe that love just happens naturally, that it comes to you and you’ll just know that it is the right love when it happens, a feeling (that I obviously haven’t gotten yet).Something unexplained inside yourself.

Others still, believe in The knight in shining armor, The princess in the tower, and The Moment. The moment   that they looked at each other and the whole room became quite and everything slowed down and they knew in their hearts that he/she was the one and The kiss that sealed their love eternally. (I admire these people).
Then there’s ME, I believe in HIM & HER.
Let me try and explain.
You know how you usually introduce your guy to your friends and your family and to strangers that you haven’t seen in a long time and happen to bump into at the mall or park or gym. It would usually be something like:
“Hi, how have been? This is (name of person) my Boyfriend, Husband, Lover, Partner etc etc” ….
Well, one day when I find my person, whenever that may be, and I happen to bump into you, it’ll go more like:  “Hi, how are you?  This is HIM”.
And you will know, not just by my words or the glow in my eyes that this is my husband or boyfriend. You will know because when I say HIM, it is an all encompassing him, he needs no titles, no elaborate introduction, no further explanations, not even a name.
Why you may ask? because everyone knows HIM or HER.
Your: hubby, cuddles, boo, sweetness, wolfy, , pup, wifey, ,angelpie crocodile… lol
Everything you feel, have felt or will feel just rolled into three letters.

I’m not sure yet if I believe in or could believe that there is someone for everyone (by that I mean: one person in this universe destined for another), but I do believe that we are all destined to find love, and someone who will love us, someone who will offer their lives and hearts and bodies to us and for whom we are willing to do the same. It might not be the one you wanted, hoped for, the one you’re with or the one you haven’t met yet.Sometimes your someone is with someone else. All I know is that we should be grateful when we do find this person and hold on with everything that we have.
But most of all, no matter what the next person believes or lives by, keep holding on to what You believe in.
                                                                                                                                                        LS

Just talk


Just talk

Recently I participated in the following discussion
Just thought someone other than myself would find it interesting to.

Do you agree with me that our profession is not much appreciated by our bosses?
Susan Kern • Sometimes a simple "Thank You" can mean the world!!
Melissa Lyte • It depends on who you work for. I have worked for some people who were truly appreciative of what I did for them but now I am in a situation where I don't think my boss sees the value of having an assistant. I have never felt so undervalued in a position and it has left me unable to figure out what my next step should be.
Gladys Ayisi Palme • Melissa, that is what i am talking about. some of them make you feel so undervalued. I think we should do something about this since at the end of the day we do practically all the work and thinking.
Grace Nthakyo • i agree with you guys. sometimes they think you are the dustbin where they have to throw their frustrations and this makes you instead of giving them 100% you start to give 30% of your service. i wish sometimes they would put themselves in our shoes and feel the way we feel.
Leonie Adonis • Being a secretary or Pa is much like being a wife
Just like a husband would expect that food will be on the table when he gets home, that the kids will be clean and magically his clothes will be washed ,ironed and laid out. They believe dishes do themselves and Santa or the Easter bunny will pay the bills on time and get the groceries on the way from the parent meeting.
Your Boss comes in switches on his air conditioner and pc, makes a few calls , orders tea and coffee, gives a list of things to do and not do, gives you the brief idea of what should be a memo, and goes home, patting himself on the back for his days work.
He completely forgets who made sure the phone and electricity bill was paid on time, who orders the canteen immunities so that he is able to have his coffee on time who writes, edits, copies and distributes the memo, who RSVP’s all the functions he’ll be going to this week .
And then still wants to know why you were on lunch 5mins to long because he couldn’t remember what the company vat number is.
Though we might not be able to change everyone’s view of us, there is one thing we know for sure purely by the fact that what we do is a recognized profession is that ………………………….
They sure as hell can’t do without us

Bertie Hayes • Hello everyone,
We are in control of our emotions and values. Is it really necessary to be patted or thanked for doing a good job. I'm glad to have a job! Yes, there are folks who will neglect or forget all that we do. Remember to take care of you and know you are good at what you do and is enough. Really! Learn to be happy where you are planted! It's okay and all will be better soon. But first, be in control of you and everything else will be okay. Try it! It works.
Leonie Adonis • Being personally content and in control has nothing to do with your employer showing you appreciation.
E.g. Mary is extremely good at job she’s passionate about what she does and how she gets it done. She is inherently a good care giver and organizer but even in this content state with her own capabilities her employer can break down a good working spirit just by being unappreciative.
It is more likely the employers lack of the aforementioned that causes of absence of appreciation. Appreciation in the even the least measure contributes to a meaningful and productive relationship in the work place with mutual benefits for both the employee and their employer. 

Wake Up!


Intro: Wake Up!

OK yes, I am actually suppose to be working and technically so are you, buuuuuuuut it's Thursday the 4th and I just haven't woken up this week yet.
Please do not pretend you don’t know what I'm talking about ..... We’ve all had it.

Monday comes and you just don’t feel like getting up, the kind where you can’t feel the rest of your body, don’t feel like getting up, your eyes are still burning your head is just cloudy and heavy and suddenly you feel sick like "maybe I can stay at home" kinda sick, and then the alarm goes off one more time. You drag your lame ass out of bed and do something that resembles a shower (sometimes you do sometimes you don’t) and brushing teeth and
the rest is hazy...............................and the next moment

Tuesday comes and you just don’t feel like getting up the kind where you can’t feel the rest of your body, your eyes are still burning your head is just cloudy and heavy and suddenly! you feel sick
..............................................
And then

Wednesday happens ...........................................................and you think, sick, since its Wednesday and you still feel the same maybe you are Really Actually sick but today unlike the other days, you realized you don’t remember anything you may or may not have done since Monday and that there is probably a pile of work just waiting.

So I'm on Thursday now still feeling like shit after my third coffee ……………
I just haven’t woken up this week yet I vaguely remember work the past three days but I’m pretty sure I was great at it


Because tomorrow I can feel I’m gonna be sick

See ya